Friday, November 17, 2017

Being Real

I've been struggling lately with some depression.  There.  I said it.  I haven't been officially diagnosed but I know.  I feel it.  Yes.  If you see me more than likely you'll see the happy go lucky girl that you've always seen in me.  Yes.  I can be happy and generally I am.  But I am struggling.  I wake up and I don't even want to get out of bed.  But I Do.  I get home and although I have things to do I'm counting down the time that I can crawl right back into my bed.  But I Get Those Things Done.  Well, most of them. 

One of my favorite shows is This Is Us.  And it relates to me in ways no other show can.  I'm a few shows behind and am catching up as I write this.  On one of the episodes the mom was talking to her brand new grand-daughter in the hospital and telling her that there is the beginning, the end and the middle.  And that sometimes the middle is one of the hardest places.  That's where I'm at right now.  The middle.  And the hardest deepest part of it.  Or so it seems right now. 

Just watched the part on This Is Us where they were in front of the judge and officially adopted Randall. So many memories just came flooding back! It reminded me of when I adopted my beautiful baby boy.  Sam. 

Oh Boy!  This little boy right here is what I'm fighting for!  He is my everything and my whole world.  MY PURPOSE!  He was and is the best thing that has ever happened to me.  The above picture was taken the day that I met Sam.  Don't know where that little baby boy has gone as he's almost an adult now.  And yet I seem to be struggling more with this age than when he was little.

If you know me though, you will know that I am determined to get through this!  I am a strong person even though every day right now I don't feel like it.  And every day right now is rough.  I can't wait for the day when you will read on here how I am crushing it.  But until then....this is my real life.

Okay...I've rambled quite a bit now.  Going to turn the table on you now.  Be honest.  Really honest with yourself.  What do you struggle with?  You may think it's trivial but you know what it may not be to someone else.  Share it!!  You may be helping someone else by sharing your struggles.


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Sunday, November 5, 2017

Taking Photos

Sam borrowed my Canon EOS Rebel camera today and asked if we could go out and take some pictures/video. SURE! I took Spike along too and while Sam was out getting some shots I took this picture of Spike watching the cows in a field. I love that I caught the wind blowing through his fur. My favorite type of picture to take is either Black & White or Sepia Tone. Seems to be a lost art now that we have a camera at our fingertips on our phones now days. But we can still take great photos with our phones as well. The photo below was taken with my phone on the black & white setting. I focused on him instead of the background where he was looking.

Taking this photo, along with a few others, reminds me how much I miss taking photos. I may have to pick up that hobby again. Or at least do it more often. It's so relaxing going out with the camera and looking at the world around me. I mean really looking. Forgetting about everything else and looking and the beauty this world has to offer. You really can get lost in a moment when you take photos. Do you take photos? What's your favorite type of photo to take? Why do you take photos? I'd love to know.

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Saturday, November 4, 2017

My Businesses

Besides working my part-time job I also am an Independent Consultant with two different companies along with working my own craft business.  Thought that I would share with you a little bit from each one that I am an Independent Consultant.  Please stop by and check them out!

The first one that I'm an Independent Consultant at is Paparazzi Accessories.  All of our Jewelry is $5!!!  How can you go wrong?  To see what I have on hand you can follow my Facebook business page or you can purchase directly from my website.  Here are some pieces that I currently have on hand just so you can see how wonderful they are. 

The second company that I am an Independent Consultant for I just joined today.  I love leggings and once I found this company, and the fact that I don't have to carry any inventory, and saw what they have to offer I knew that it was one that I could work for.  It's Buskins Leggings.  Their quality is amazing and the cost is very reasonably priced.  My store front is BeYouTiful Leggings.  You can do all of your shopping right from your computer!  I will soon have a Facebook Page up and running as well.  But I couldn't wait to share it with y'all!

Buskins leggings are SOFT, Durable and great quality. Made from Polyester and Spandex, these peach skin fabric leggings will make you never go anywhere else for leggings again. Buskins Leggings carries, Regular, Fleece and Fur lined Leggings and sizes include toddler through plus women (pluskins) and even some mens. We may carry specialty items from time to time. 

Monday, October 30, 2017

New Header

I'm so excited!  I finally created a new header for my blog.  I've always had a fascination with the 50s so I thought that I would incorporate that with my header.  So after searching Google I found a picture that I like along with a free photo editor, BeFunky, that would help me with resizing the photo along with some nice fonts to choose from so that I could add my name to it.  Then all that was left was to save it and uploaded it!  And just like that I have a new header! Wasn't as hard as I thought it was going to be. What do you think?

Sunday, October 29, 2017

I'm back & My Pumpkin Soup

It's been way to long since I've written here.  In fact it's been almost a year and a half!  I really need to get back into writing.  Writing posts on my blog had always helped me relax, concentrate, feel better when I was down....basically my therapy.  And I need my therapy now.  In all honesty, I also miss sharing with you all!  What's sad is that I don't even know if I have an audience anymore.  Hopefully someone out there will read this.  I want to get back into writing, at the very least, once a week. There is still a lot I need to do to update this blog which I hope to do this week so it will make it easier for all of you to navigate and find things here.  I will update you about what all has been happening in my life this week as well since it's been so long since I was last on here.  I hope all is well with all of you and I'm looking forward to reconnecting with old friends and making some new.

So, I thought that I would start this blog back off by sharing a favorite soup recipe of mine that I will be making tonight.  It's my Pumpkin Soup Recipe.  It's so savory and good that I look forward to making it every year about this time.  If I'm serving it at a party I will usually double this recipe.  What is your favorite soup recipe?  I'd love to know as I'm always looking for new ones to try.  Let me know if you try this one.  ENJOY!

Pumpkin Soup


6 cups chicken stock
1 1/2 teaspoons salt
4 cups pumpkin puree (can use canned)
1 teaspoon chopped fresh parsley
1 cup chopped onion
1/2 teaspoon chopped fresh thyme
1 clove garlic, minced
1/2 cup heavy whipping cream
5 whole black peppercorns

  1. Heat stock, salt, pumpkin, onion, thyme, garlic and peppercorns.  Bring to a boil, reduce heat to low, and simmer for 30 minutes uncovered.
  2. Puree the soup in small batches using a food processor or a blender.  I used an immersion blender in the pot and it works just fine.
  3. Return to pan, and bring to a boil again.  Reduce heat to low, and simmer for another 30 minutes, uncovered.  Stir in heavy cream.  Pour into soup bowls and garnish with fresh parsley or some cracked pepper.

Sunday, May 8, 2016

Happy Mother's Day

Earlier this week I received a message from a former pastor of mine from when I lived in Nashville and he and his wife have been dear friends of mine for many years.  I was asked by Brother John to write down what does adoption me to me as an adoptive mother and what values would I teach others about being a parent for him to use in his sermon today. Below is what I sent to him. 
First off, I’m very honored to be asked. The second thought that they crossed my mind was, “Oh no! What am I going to say?” I took a day or two to ponder these questions as thoughts started flooding in and yet were also fleeting. (I need a record button inside my head to record down my thoughts when I don’t have anywhere else to record them while I’m thinking.)  One of the first things that popped into my head was that I honestly don’t call myself an adoptive parent. I consider and call myself a parent. A very blessed parent. You see someone else not only gave birth to my now 16 year old son but they were so selfless in that they saw a better life for their child with someone else. That has got to be one of the most selfless acts! My son, Samuel, was prayed for before he was ever conceived. He was loved before he was ever a thought in anyone else’s minds.
So what exactly is adoption? Merriam Webster gives the definition of adoption as 1. the act or process of adopting a child. 2. the act or process of beginning to use something new or different. 3. the act of process of giving official acceptance or approval to something. I look at adoption meaning the child meant for you may not be of you, but instantly a part of you. Adoption means that I am automatically a parent and have a license to parent….literally! Adoption means hope.
One phrase as an adoptive parent that we all hear a lot is “you were born in my heart, not in my womb”. I’ve never really liked that phrase even though it is basically true. Then I remembered (and yes, I do still have it packed away somewhere) the sermon that John gave on the day that he baptized Sam. I remembered him saying that we are all adopted by God. That made the aforementioned phrase take on something different to me. No, God did not give birth to me but I was born out of love. God’s love along with my parents love. Whether that parent is biological or adoptive that love is never ending and never wavering. 
As far as what values I would teach others about being a parent….that honestly is a loaded question for me. I would say that first and foremost you need to be patient.  Remember that they are children (yes, even the teenagers) and that they will make mistakes. You also need to remember that you made mistakes as well.  Bottom line is that I’m a parent to an awesome son! No, he’s not perfect. Yes, he’s made some mistakes. What child hasn’t. Yes he has a lot more to learn. Don’t we all.  Adoption really all does boil down to one thing….. I’m blessed to be his Mom.
Here are some photos that I've shared with you all throughout the years of the wonderful boy that made me a mom.


Happy Mother's Day!

Monday, April 4, 2016

Bible Journaling

I've recently started Bible Journaling.  I can hear all of your questions going through your heads.  What is Bible Journaling? Do I need a special Bible? Do I need to be artistic? Do I need special supplies? What will Bible Journaling do for me and why should I do it? 

Bible Journaling was first introduced to me by the therapist I was seeing.  She knew my love of art and crafting and also knew that I am a Christian.  She too had been Bible Journaling and thought that it would be a good way for me to work through some of my feelings through Bible verses and using it as therapy.  WOW!  Did it ever work. 

Bible Journaling and what is it and can anyone do it even if I'm not artistic?  Bible Journaling is a great way to connect with scripture by drawing or even scribbling a stick figure.  Artistic ability is not a requirement.  Wanting to connect more to scripture really is the only requirement.  The benefits are numerous and can vary from person to person.  For me it all started with wanting to learn more about myself and heal wounds.  Now it's a desire to learn, connect and to create.

Do you need a special Bible?  No.  You do not need a special Bible.  You can either use a Bible that you have that you don't mind drawing in or you can purchase a special Journaling Bible.  I did purchase a Journaling Bible.  Mine is like this one.

Or if you feel like you are not artistic but still want a way to create inside a Journaling Bible I highly recommend this one. It has "over 400 beautiful line-art illustrations spread throughout the Bible. Full-page and partial-page Scripture art is attractively displayed throughout the Bible, and the illustrations can be colored in to make each Bible unique, colorful, and customizable."  And there are still many pages where you can add your own illustrations.

Do you need special supplies?  Not really.  You can use every day crayons, colored pencils or pens.  I do, however, recommend that you make sure that any pens or markers that you use don't bleed through.  Remember that Bible pages are thin.  I mostly use watercolor pencils, colored pencils, gelatos, watercolors and archival pens.

This weekend I finished a verse that was a favorite of my niece, Christina.  As a reminder, Christina is my sisters daughter that tragically passed away last August.  This verse was used in her Celebration of Life service and I wanted to do it justice and make it personal. The verse is Hebrews 12:1.  So I printed a picture of Christina on some vellum and added it to the adjacent page with some washi tape. On her picture I put a quote that I had found on one of her pictures on Instagram.  I really like how it turned out.  Here are some pictures of it.  Remember that you can click on the pictures to enlarge.

We are studying Isaiah in Sunday School and I am working on quite a few verses within this book.  Today I did Isaiah 9:6. 

This one and the one in Hebrews were not my original ideas.  I found them on Pinterest and I welcome you to follow me.  I did the on from Hebrews freehand.  The on in Isaiah I traced and freehand.  One thing I love about the Bible Journaling community is that it's okay to use someone else's idea and make it your own.  I do have some that I've done already that are completely my own ideas.  I highly recommend to anyone to pick up Bible Journaling. 

Do you have any questions that I haven't answered?  Ask away and I'll do my best to answer them for you.


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